So, many of you know how busy me and Elan are this semester. I am taking 19 credits, and doing the biggest winner program at school, and Elan is taking 16 credits and working 18 hours a week. We are pretty busy, but we still try and find time to do things together. This weekend we went to a jazz festival and a Valentine's dance. It was fun, but the feeling of being overwhelmed was not helped. It is especially hard when I have big assignments due later, and of course my first reaction is to procrastinate. So, it's a work in progress. Some other news, I am doing the Biggest Winner at school which is the BYU-I's version of biggest loser! I have already lost 8 pounds! It is another time commitment, but I think that it is well worth it. My goal for this semester is to lose 30 pounds and I would like to lose 100 pounds this year. I know it sounds like a lot, but it is only 2 pounds a week. I can do it! When I am really struggling I think of the kids that can't come yet because my body isn't ready, and how I am doing it for them. Speaking of which, I am doing a lot better with not having children yet. I have to keep counting my blessings and I read Isaiah 53 a lot. I know that things are going to happen for me, I just have to do my part. It is a little bit hard to see my friends who got married around the same time as me having their second child. I am of course happy for them, but I thought that I would be there by now, too. If you asked me 4 years ago what I was doing in 5 years, I would have said, "well I'd probably be at home taking care of my kids." I have the same goal for the next 5 years I guess. I am grateful for my sweet husband who loves me through all of this. Something cute that happened was this: during the opening ceremonies of biggest winner, he started to cry because he was so proud of me. He's so great and supportive. I really am lucky that I get to spend more time with him. Just him. So in other news, I am training a rat. Yeah... it's kinda fun, but I have an aversion to mice and rats that has transferred through generations, so I had to spend extra time getting used to him. His name is Luey. We are cool now!
Here is my lesson for you all. No matter what happens in life, it keeps going. It isn't going to get better when some great thing happens like for me having a baby or graduating from college (July 23)! It is a journey and we need to enjoy it while it lasts. Make sure that you count your blessings (it will surprise you what the Lord has done). I know that He loves me very much, and just remember that sometimes our timing and the Lord's timing are different, but it doesn't change the fact that He loves us and wants what is best for us. He has not forsaken us. Please don't give up on Him.
Love you all! Be true! Be strong!
Tasha
