School's back in session!

Elan started school this week! It has been a good transition. I for one am glad that he can focus on something other than work! I feel like it is going to be another great semester! He is off to a good start! I am really so proud of him!

There was an opportunity to take classes on your off track if you have over 60 credits... well, I have over 60 credits so I was thinking, YES. Good idea! I need to be back in school! But it turns out that I can't utilize this opportunity because I haven't started back in school yet. UGH! And we went to the gym, and I couldn't get in because I haven't started back at school yet!! It has been driving me crazy!!

Concerning my job, I have not been getting any hours. And I mean ANY. My last paycheck was $7.77. Oh yes, I am rolling in the big bucks~! But anyway, I have a new friend who introduced me to the idea of working as a Mary Kay consultant. I think that maybe the reason that I haven't found any nanny jobs and my job hasn't been giving me hours is because I was supposed to be ready for this opportunity. I know that there are a lot of Mary Kay consultants out there and I will just be another fish in this massive sea, but I have a REALLY good feeling about it. I know that it is what I am supposed to be doing right now! And when I get a better feel for it and have a good customer base, I will be able to quit the stupid job that isn't giving me any hours any way! Haha!

My birthday is coming up! I am going to be 22! Yikes. I am having a little party tomorrow, and I am just really excited to see friends that i haven't seen in a really long time! I am hoping that some of them will be interested in getting a free facial! By the way, after using the Mary Kay face wash, my face felt sooo good! And then the day after (using my regular face wash) I felt gross. I love that stuff! Haha! I think it will be the first thing I buy for myself! I am really excited about it!

Baby news: I took Chlomid this month as a way to stimulate my ovaries and hopefully become pregnant. I don't know the news yet, but I will probably know by the 21st. (That is my next doctor's appointment too.) So I will keep you posted! We are both really excited about this!

I guess that is the current news of our life right now, Elan says "Hi, Ya'll" Which is kind of funny because he doesn't really talk like that. But that's what he told me to write! Haha! We love you all and we are super excited for the coming months when we get to see our families! Have a good day! :)

New Job... and other things...

I got a new job at a call center... WOO HOO. Not. It has been okay, I guess. I just wish that there was a daycare here that wanted to hire me. But, oh well. I think that it is a fine job calling people and asking questions and all that jazz... I can't complain. It's a paycheck.

I went to the OB/GYN last week, and he has high hopes of helping me and Elan get pregnant. I think that now that it is a possibility that I will be pregnant soon, I am almost freaking out about it, because I am not ready to be a mom... Hah. That is pretty ridiculous, now that I think about it. But anyway, he put me on some medicine and will see me in a couple weeks and then look at my ovaries and stuff to see what's going on in there. It was my first pap smear, so that was... interesting? And he did a bunch of blood work and I will talk to him about the results at my next appointment. So that's the news on my future baby.

Elan is full of life and exhuberance, always wanting to go on walks and go outside. He's exhausting. Haha... Just kidding, it's good for me! And for him! We are happy to have an extra paycheck, that makes life soo much easier! We are both looking forward to going back to school, and overall, life is pretty good!

I do have sad days sometimes, where I wish that things were different, but I am glad that my sweet husband is always there for me, encouraging me and loving me, even though I am broken.

We like each other, a lot.

We love you all and can't wait to see you again!

Emotional...

I feel like I have been so emotional lately! I have cried almost every day this week. I don't get it. But this is what I found out today, and it made me really really really mad/sad.

I have a friend, and she got married in March (3 months ago). She was married in the temple, and we were all so proud. Today, I found out that she is 6 months pregnant. It isn't fair. I went through all of the pain and sorrow of not being able to go through the temple and now even though I want a baby, I can't get pregnant. And this girl shouldn't have gotten married there, and here she is, going to have a baby. Maybe if me and Elan had done it that way, I would be pregnant by now. I am just so mad! I know that He loves me, but I just don't understand why I can't get the one thing I have wanted more than anything in the world. There have been a lot of babies born lately, and I can't say that I am not jealous. There are new borns in both apartments next to us, and another one kiddie corner to us. I know that it isn't true, because Heavenly Father wouldn't intentionally be cruel. But I feel like He's rubbing it in my face. Like because of what I did, I have lost the blessing of children. I can't take it. But that can't be the reason because everyone sins and can still have babies. I'm so broken. I just don't know what to do.

Yesterday, at church, I realized that I have no friends. I sat alone in relief society. I wanted to leave and just cry. But I got through it, and someone finally sat next to me. But the good news is... only one week of relief society left for me! I got a calling... I'll be in the nursery after that! :) I'm glad someone finally got the revelation. Haha. Just kidding, but I am glad because I don't think I could take another few weeks of relief society!

Anyway, I really have been emotional, I hope that everything inside of me is okay. I don't know many people who cry when they spill flour on the counter...

Oh and for the few of you who I told about my unfortunate incident, I'm okay.

Love you all, be good and remember who you are!

Gratitude

The day that I was leaving for the Family Reunion in Wyoming, a man knocked on my door. He was selling magazines for school. Right away, I noticed something was off because he handed me a card describing himself and said he was 5'7" with blonde hair and blue eyes. In reality he was probably 6'5" with brown hair and brown eyes. He tried selling me magazines, and I talked to him for a little bit, and he inched his way into my home. For whatever reason, I was never comfortable with him and made him stay in the doorway, I realized that it was a huge scam because he was charging a ridiculous amount of money for a year subscription of a magazine. I think it was $65 per magazine. I don't know much about magazines, but I am pretty sure that I could spend less by going to the store every month and buying one there. After all of these things just didn't add up, I made him leave because first of all, I had no money, and second, I figured it was a scam. I realized afterwards that he had commented on a ton of our stuff like the guitars and the casio. I was super worried that he was going to rob us because I didn't fall for his scam and he staked out the place. Luckily, Elan was home that weekend, and nothing happened.

Today, I got an e-mail from our apartment warning about a man who was impersonating a magazine salesman who was an alleged rapist.

Can you imagine? I don't know if this magazine man and the rapist are the same person, but I am glad that I never found out. I can't even believe that it was even close. I can't even begin to express my appreciation for having the spirit to help me recognize predators, even if he wasn't the rapist, he was definitely a predator.

I have been in multiple situations where something bad could have happened, and for whatever reason, I have been protected again and again. I am just grateful for that.

In other news, Elan got a raise for all of his incredible hard work and dedication to his job! I am so proud of him! As for me, no job yet, but I have a good feeling about the next couple of weeks!

I am just incredibly grateful for the life that I have been given and the love that my Heavenly Father shows me every time I turn around! Even when I definitely don't deserve it!

I am super excited about our trip next week! I just can't wait to be with my best friends and family again! WE LOVE YOU!!

OH NO!

OH NO!

I sold my iPhone. I haven’t been able to find a job through all of my searching, and so I had to make a sacrifice. I am selling other things, too, but they all are things that I never ever used. But my phone… I used that every day! I have the same number, so don’t worry about that. My phone is a $10 phone from Wal*Mart! WHAT? I feel like Elan has been making a ton of sacrifices for me, working super hard and long hours, and I had to make some kind of sacrifice as well. The good news is, we now have enough money for our trip to Washington. The bad news is… I have a $10 phone. Everything will be okay, but it hurts to lose nice things. I guess that Sunday’s lesson was inspired. We learned about how riches can turn a person prideful and crazy and that we need to rely on the Lord and not on our nice things. Thank goodness that temptation is now gone…

The Trembath family reunion is this weekend, and I am thoroughly excited! I can’t wait to see everyone and go to the mountains and have a blast! The only problem is Elan will probably not be able to come, and that makes me sad. I guess it makes up for last years man fishing trip that I didn’t go to. But he’s having that again in a few weeks! So maybe if I have so much fun that I can’t stand it, then it will make up for that. I don’t know. Actually, being with Patty, Jill, and Tommie will make up for that this year! I am so excited!

Our trip to Washington is going to be a week long endeavor, and I can’t wait! I have been having dreams about it! I honestly am so excited! J I miss my family over there more than anything! Elan sometimes says that I love his family more than he does. I don’t know if that’s true! But I sure love you, English family!

I have to say that I am truly blessed! Maybe I don’t have an iPhone, but I have amazing family that loves me and I love them! Thanks for loving us through all of our flaws and everything!

Elan has been working really hard, trying to make enough money for us to get by. I hope to find a job soon. I have had 2 interviews, but I guess I am not what they were looking for. Maybe I can find something else. There is a dentist office hiring, and they said they would train the right person, but they also said “no students please.” Too bad for them, I am the right person, and I am a student. It has been a lot harder than usual to find a job, even the opinionology place turned me down. They don’t usually turn anyone down… I don’t know. But overall, life is dandy, and I am glad that I get to spend it with my hunny!

Have a good day everyone!

Happy Mother's Day!

Ode to Mothers:

When I was small and had no friends

You told me the world had no ends

That I could be anything I could dream

And then you would give me ice cream

When I grew up a little bit

I liked to scream and I liked to hit

But you held me close and never let go

Told me you loved me forever more

When my mind was filled with boys

And I grew out of most of my toys

You helped me remember my true worth,

The destiny I've had since birth

When I grew up and left your home

And sometimes just felt so alone

You always helped and knew what to say

And reminded me that I could pray

As I grow older and live my life

Through happiness and through strife

I don't know much, but there's something I do:

I want to be a mother like you

I love you!

I thought that might be a nice tribute to our moms! We love you!

It's a little ironic...

The last post was about how I got a job, and then when I finally write a new one, I no longer have said job. It's a long story about how the owner of the daycare just didn't like me. She kept cutting my hours without notice and I would gt in trouble for silly things. The first week, she threatened to fire me because I wasn't mean enough. I was still trying to learn the rules, so how was I supposed to be a good teacher when I was brand new? Another thing about her was the way she went about punishing me. Everytime she talked to me, I wanted to cry. I am not even joking. I was working so hard, but a nice word never came out of her mouth. I truly loved the children, and I can't wait to get another job with more supportive management. It really has helped me decide what I want to do and what I need to do to get there. I love children, and so that's a no brainer. I am going to work with children. I really don't like people telling me what to do. So I am going to be my own boss. I am going to open my own child psychology office. I can't wait to go back to school and get headed in the right direction again. In the meantime, I am looking for a job, again.

Elan is doing great! If you didn't hear, his grades were SPECTACULAR! He is such a hard worker and I am so proud of him! He is working a ridiculous amount of hours and has to wake up at 7 most days. I like the turn of events that makes him go to bed earlier! :) We are really grateful for the hour increase because we are going to need the extra money these next few weeks. Hopefully I find another job soon.

Pat and Patty came to visit on their way to Jill's graduation! We had so much fun! I know that I for one have been homesick for them, and it was so nice to see them! We are looking forward to our next meeting! I was also able to see my family for a couple of days in Provo because they were there for Whitnee's graduation! It was really nice! You wouldn't believe how big my sisters have gotten! It was a really great weekend!

Life in general has been pretty good, and I am grateful for the experiences that I have had to get me to this place. I was told once not to neglet my education. I know now how true that is, and how much I have been neglecting. I am excited to go back and hopefully get done pretty quick. I wish everyone the best and hope you have a fantabulous day!